snow angel

After a long and very busy week at work, I finally made it to Colorado for a week of fun and relaxation. Im so excited to spend this time with Monica and her friends. Its such a blessing to be able to get away for an entire week. While you wont find this girl on skiis, Im looking forward to relaxing, reading, jounaling, shopping, and venturing out to do some snow tubing and snow mobiling. Should be a blast! Plus I get to catch up with one of my best friends who I havent seen in a while. What a gift!

Right now Im feeling again as though the winds of change are blowing around me again. Several more friends are engaged, new relationships, and now, a sweet baby has arrived to some of my dear friends. Im overflowing with joy for them as Ive watched their dedication to Christ and to one another as they have taken this journey to adoption. E and R, Im beyond thrilled for you guys and Ive thanked Jesus every day since the news came out! Good old Ross gang is sure changing! Its just like we've prayed. We asked for the fullness of Christ to enter into our lives. We've prayed for husbands and wives and children. And now we are seeing the sweet fruit!

"But what about me God?" Its so hard not to ask that. It seems as though my life always seems to lead me back to that question. I hate that! I hate it that the thought even enters my mind. I know how extremely blessed Ive been. I know how rich my life has been. And yet, I continue to seek more. There's something missing. No, there's SOMEONE missing. And there's nothing I can do or say to make it come any sooner or any easier. I cant earn it. I cant will it to happen. God, in His ultimate goodness and love, will choose when to bless me. Until then, Im clinging to the word that was given to me a few years ago, that the Lord has my groom for me, but that this is a season of preparation. And Im finding that the preparation is the most important part of any relationship. And I know that I would much rather give this person to someone rather than the person I was a year ago.

We are a people that dont like to be unsatisified. We like full bellies and satisfied hungers. We think we need to be content to be happy. But this longing for a husband, for someone to share life with, experiences with, love with.....continually leads me back to the Father. And while I dont understand why things arent happening when I want them to, I trust Him. I trust that the Lord is preparting a man that is perfect for me in every way. Im trusting that He has thought through every detail, so that when it happens, there will be no denying His hand on the situation. Learning to surrender these longings to Christ's timing and will is hard. But its the best and most safest place to place them.

Reveal yourself to me over this next week. May I see you more fully as I experience your creative works in the beauty of Colorado. And hey, thanks for bringing me one day closer to meeting that awesome man you have waiting for me:-)