random or divine

Ever get confused by all the random thoughts and ideas that go through your mind in one day, let alone one moment? Ever question 'is it random?' or is it placed there by God to get you stirred, pointing you in the direction that is leading to your destiny. Gosh I wish I could figure that one out. I continue to have to surrender these ideas to Christ, knowing that I dont need to stress out about it, about missing my call. Because God is faithful and He does the best work when we are open and ready to move. He's not going to let me miss it completely. Takes a lot of pressure off of me.

I dont need a map of my whole future. In fact, I dont want one. I think Id probably freak out a bit. But man, if I could just have one for the next 6 months that would be great! There's so much brewing in my mind and I wish I knew what to discard and what to pursue. Some of its so random I have no idea what to do with it!

So Ive talked recently about this Tennessee childrens home and school and my renewed interest in it. I think it represents my love for kids, my desire to nurture and love on them, and my desire to sacrifice myself to something for the Lord's glory. But now you know what it is? I have this continued vision of having a home right outside of the campus of a secular college that is used as a ministry place for young people, christians and non, looking for a place of refuge and peace, prayer, fellowship, a good meal, and love. How cool would that be? A place to disciple young women. A place to have bible study. A place to just do life together.

What is interesting about both of these is that it doesnt involve nursing. I love my job! But yet I sense that something new is coming. I wonder if this trip to South Africa in may will shed light on that. I pray that it does. I dont want to settle for getting comfortable again.

Wow, who would have thought that this country girl from PA, who was homesick growing up, hated change, and desired a safe plan would ever end up here?

wow........