Life again

Sitting here, on the couch in my home... the one in Lancaster that is......with the sounds of people. the smells of food in the kitchen, and the ability to relate and converse again....its as if life is being restored once again. These things that I have longed for, that have been vacant in recent months have returned yet again. But its a new kind of life. I'm reminded that this place will never be as it once was. I'm going to need to relearn a lot of things, like how to relate to people I haven't known very long; how to adjust to different styles of living; being used to having dishes in the sink, or someone in the bathroom, or noise in the living room. This house represents community and life. Isn't that what Ive longed for?

Oh Lord, I feel the shift. I feel the changes starting to happen. I recognize things in me that were never there before. How can I go back to the way things were. I so desire to be back in this place, to experience the fullness of what will be present here. But there still remain so many unknowns. I believe that many of the passions and giftings you've placed in me are best used in the nursing field. Yet there's so many other things! I don't want to live with blinders. So direct my heart....direct me mind.....stir things in my heart that maybe I've never noticed before.....raise up the strength needed to be bold and make a change, or do something new, or unpredicted.

There's simple no other place that Id rather be than in your arms of love Jesus. Continue to transform me, making me new everyday....more and more like you.