beautiful day

Wow, what an amazingly beautiful day! Unfortunately,I've only been able to enjoy about 1 hour of it each day over the last three days as Ive been working all weekend! Its been tough, my body aches, and the sun wakes me up early at 3pm every day. But Im surviving. Its amazing what this weather does to me. The coolness of the air, the bright blue sky and the gentle breeze 'awakes my heart to sing!' This by far is my favorite time of year. As I was driving home this morning, my thoughts took me back to a year ago this time. What a rich, full time it was for me. It was the beginning of a great work that was about to take place in my life. The Lord was moving and responding to my hearts cry. Community was forming, the Lord was speaking to me in ways I never imagined, a new roommate, new passions, and healing was coming! As I played 'the Blaze in your Gaze' on my car cd player, I was filled with this huge sense of awe and wonder towards the Lord. My heart was full of praise for this God who is so big, so kind, so loving, so mysterious, so creative, so ready and willing to take me in......I felt as though I couldnt find the words to express myself. So I just sat still, taking in the beauty of the morning, the melody of the music, and simply was just present in the moment. For as often as I struggle to understand God, to make sense of life, and ask 'why,' this place I found myself in was amazingly perfect.

I've started reading a book at the encouragement of my sister Kristin. The book is called, Revelations of a Single Woman: Loving the Life I Didn't Expect. Im absolutely devouring the book! Reading the title, one might think its yet another book that gives advice on how to make yourself 'marriable' or how to date right, or how to figure out whats wrong with you. Lord knows there are enough books out there written by married women who think they understand what you are going through. Well this book is one of the best, most real and honest books Ive read on this topic. Its absolutely dead on! The author writes in such an honest and real way that I find myself feeling as though she's writing my story. It feels SO GOOD to know that these thoughts and emotions that I feel are legitimate, and others feel similar things. There are so many things that i highlighted, but of course I don't have the book in front of me. But one of the things that sticks out to me is this thing of longing for a husband, and how Jesus can totally relate. Seriously???? Yes! Christ longs for his bride to return to him, to come to the fullness of life that he has for us. He longs for intimacy with his bride. I too long for that relationship with a husband.....for intimacy, for the fullness of love and all that a relationship brings. Wow......good stuff. Fresh perspective is so good!

So for today, I am called to be single. Who knows about tomorrow! For some reason the Lord has me in this place of singleness for the moment. So my prayer is that through this, the work of the Lord would be on display in my life like never before. Thank you Lord for this time! I cant say it enough. Be honored and glorified in me today!