Like journal....like blog

So it seems to go the same way for me.....whether its a journal or a blog, life always seems to run away with me and I forget to take the time to put my reflections on paper. Much has happened over the last month. I'm now another year older and wiser. Its my hope and prayer that this new year will continue to be filled with growth and joy and met desires. There is much hope for this year! My birthday weekend was pretty special. I picked up my scrapbook that my friend Danae had done for me for the first five years of my life. It was emotional looking through the book, seeing pictures of me, the helpless infant, the innocent child, not knowing what the coming years would hold. I headed home to the farm for some sweet time with mom and dad on the farm. Mom made a special meal for me and ten of my friends from home, some of whom I haven't seen in years. It was surreal sitting around the table, seeing my old buddies now all grown up, married, children, and some on the way. My how far we've come. It was a joy to sit and reconnect with one another, catch up on life, encourage and enjoy the beautiful weather. Sunday evening some of my family came over for pie and ice cream, followed by a nice brunch in the morning with my mom, aunt and grand mom. It was a sweet weekend, celebrating what was, what is, and what is to come.

Its hard to believe that I only have 3 weeks left in my assignment. Weeks ago, my plan was to come home after the assignment was over. In fact, just two weeks ago, that was my plan. But after many prayers, quiet times, and reflecting on my passions and needs in life right now, it has become clear what needs to happen next. On my way to work one night, as I was thinking about how much I enjoyed working with my coworkers, how much I was growing to the area down here, and how much life I was beginning to feel, I heard 'why don't you stay at Shady Grove." It was as if a light bulb went on. I had turned myself off to the idea weeks ago. But now, it felt so right. The following Sunday I went to a new church at McLean Bible Church, called Frontline. Its a church for 20-30's in the DC area. I was overwhelmed as I entered in to the building. Thousands of young people........where did they all come from???? I felt life rising within me. Even as I sat by myself, I did not feel alone. This church, while it is a 'mega church,' does it right. They are passionate followers of Christ that long for community, relationship, worship, serving, and ministering to the needs of the DC area. Right away, I was introduced to the newcomers group, encouraged to get plugged in with small groups, opportunities to serve and use your gifts and passions. There was life here....life that I have longed for. This confirmed my desire to stay in the area. But there was one minor glitch.......my position was just given away to another traveler. I was a week late in giving my manager my notice. But she said she was going to push for another position, but Id have to wait til Monday. And so I wait.....but fully trusting the Lord for his provision. Ive made my request known...my desires know....and will wait for the best. I spoke with my recruiter today and she said that she talked with the hospital and they said that I was already approved for the position, they were just waiting for the managers go ahead. Amen!!!!! While its not completely official, there is hope!

I do have mixed feelings however. Its hard to think about being away from Lancaster. It has been my home for 5 years. I have many dear friends (some of you may be reading this) that I miss and long to stay connected to. But its become clear in the recent months that I do not feel at home anymore. Its as if the Lord is redirecting me....giving me a desire to step out and stretch. This thing in me that is longing for more.....I need to keep following that. I cant settle in to whats comfortable. I need to know. And so.....I will follow my heart and trust my Father in guiding it to new life.

Its been a journey. One year ago, if I would have known that Id be in this place doing what I'm doing I would have said no way. But desperateness pushed me out and look at what Ive found. Thank you Jesus for your kindness and mercy and grace. Grace!!!!