Amazed

Oh Lord, you never cease to amaze me. I'm more and more aware of your presence in my life. I thank you and praise you for who you are. Your blessings and provision to me are life giving. But my heart knows that you alone are life. My spirit longs to know you more, to be more like you, to love as you love, to see with your eyes, and to hear with such clarity that only you can bring. I'm in process, so I ask for patience as I continue to miss opportunities and make a mess sometimes. But you are so gracious.

The After Eve conference was a joy to be at. The conference itself was ok, but what came of it was even sweeter. The Lord put in my path some pretty neat young women, all of who attend Frontline. It was awesome to get to know some of their stories. Many are here in the area for work. So each of us told the other of our journey of how we got here and what we are looking and longing for. At one of the dinner breaks I had the opportunity to go back to one of the homes of two of the girls I met. We ate and fellowshiped together and it was so easy to be together. I was uplifted and encouraged no doubt. Saturday provided even more opportunity to connect. I met several more women who then invited me to a bonfire that night. It was a joy to be in the presence of so many young vibrant people.

Its a start of something....I can feel it. There's a little fear however. Can I go through this again? Finding my way into a new social group? Can I find friends? I just want to get there....to be in relationship, those solid life giving relationships like I have and have had before. But no Melissa, that takes time. Be patient and enjoy the ride.

I find out tomorrow if I can stay at Shady Grove for sure. There is such anticipation for that. I'm trusting you Lord!

As I look back over the past couple of months, I'm amazed at the journey. From desperation, to depression, to the anointed times of women's retreats, to love and pursuit of Captivating, to a new year of life, to Frontline, to the present, what a journey. God I don't want to get focused on everything that's going on around me. I don't want to focus on the blessings. Lord, my eyes are set on you! You are my hearts desire.